Dear sweet knight whom-still-feels-like-a-wreck,
Sweetheart, I know you probably won't feel very good on your trip to Malaysia but just know I need you to leave your troubles behind. Escape reality for a few days. When you return to face them again you'll have renewed strength and I promise to take you through it. Step by step.
I have a feeling the greatest thing thats bothering you is the issue of us drifting apart. To admit, I know we will in the years to come. And as I said, its easiest to let go, hard to hold on but even harder to forget. I don't want to forget every sweet memory you left imprinted in my heart like a love film. Most of all I don't want to forget you.
What I want to say is that time and distance are sure to force us apart and sometimes we are left with no choice but to let them come in our way. And I am so glad to know that you don't want us to drift apart. Really glad.
I love you too much to let anything happen to us. Just know that if time and distance gets in our way, the connection between our hearts will always be strong. I know sometimes you'll feel like you've lost those feelings, but they will rush back to you when we meet. I promise you that. It happens.
I need you to take a deep, deep breath and put all your faith into me because I will carry the strength for you. I need you to trust in yourself, in us rather, that we will make it through all the long, enduring hours of not seeing each other. Time flies, we all know it. And when we're together, we're gonna spend all the time we have left in the world with each other.
Remember yesterday at the TCC? As I sat studying you when you said I deserved better, I asked myself one question. "Would I have the courage, the strength, to stand up and walk out this place, turn my back and walk away from you?"
No. I couldn't. And even if you forced me to, I wouldn't. And those thoughts, those prospects of my days without you in my life came back to me. It seemed dull, meaningless even. I would ask myself, "What am I living today for?"
We both know we mean the whole world to each other, and everytime I tell you I'd love to spend my time with you but I couldn't because of unforseen activities, you'd always tell me, "I'm yours forever." And that always comforts me.
I need to tell you again. I love you. And I need to tell you again that I've never loved someone so bravely. Ever.
Womby wants me to tell you that she never wants us to see us apart. And I know Prince Habibu doesn't want that too.
Do try to cheer up honey, its hard to see you down. Give it some time, things will be better. Trust me, okay?
Take good care of yourself on this trip and just message or call me anytime you need to hear me. I'll be replying via the Internet SMS.
I'm missing you already as I type this out, but like the last time I'll be counting down the days for you. Oh, and dinner on Wednesday night with you would be nice.
For you, I'm willing to do so many things. And for me, I know you will be more than willing too.
Even if I'm not by your side sweetheart, I'll always live in your heart. Hold on tight to me and the sweet memories, and I promise you, I'll never be that far.
I love you dear. Truckloads and loads.
Lots of hugs and kisses,
Your sweet-loving Princess whom-misses-you-holding-her
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